half of what’s still beating

Still from Pride and Prejudice (2005) dir. Joe Wright

My heart is not entirely broken and the reasoning is you.

Though for the longest while it has not been whole as it once used to be,
take heed in the knowing that half of my heart is still beating because I met you.

So when you feel as if you are not doing enough,
and your worries are still intact,
rest easy my love for you are all there is to keep me going.

we’re halfway dead with the way we treat each other.

busy steps in crowded pavements.
on with the work, they think to themselves.

not a life to live for but not much can be done
when you’re trapped in a thoughtless game never won.

so few tilt their heads and look at it questioningly
when higher echelons strive off of our success and failures mercilessly.

“up the ladder they go!”, we cheer on bitterly.

then why — why give blame to whomever vulnerable?
unfairly treated, belittled, and to put all fault in
yet never to those who presented it?
never to those who put them there?

they work just as much as us
twice as much as miserable, thrice still not being enough?

apparently, to be not treated human
is when you’re not being paid enough.


equals do not exist here.
we have moneyed people to adhere.

as our misery escalates,
i do wonder of a world where we finally choose to save each other.

Moment of Tangency

Buckingham Palace

I.

A room full of people I barely know,
and then there’s you.

Eyes so blue,
I cannot take it upon myself to look away.

You impart smiles and move in kind gestures
to those need be entertained.

Words spoken so eloquently
to each individual in the room.

I write those words like letters
as though they were meant for me.

Anytime there’s the slightest glint of you walking my away,
you’re suddenly somewhere else.

Yet we swayed ourselves
into each other’s lives,
only so briefly.

A kind of love that ended so soon.
Alive in that singular evening,
then nonexistent by morning.

The only tenderness I’ve ever come to know
is of that clouded still midnight
when for the briefest of moments,
I meant something to you.


II.

The heavy heartbreak,
unspoken words, and feigned gestures.

We think like letters we never send.

For all the titles I’ve chased for greed,
I could have at least took the time to reiterate the spirit of that winter’s night.

Alas, I chose without depth.
I went along where you weren’t.

Gave away the labour of something new.

Stolen glances are what our lost love came to be.
As almost lovers — we’ve come to be.

Your delicate brown eyes
sharply piercing through my lull skin.

It’s you, just you that’s left me undone.



restless sailings

Photography by Mira Nedyalkova

There is this vigorous urge to outlive
so much of this hurt.

It sways violently like a sailing boat in
the midst of a restless thunderstorm.

And I’m consumed by its cataclysmic ways.

The tedious goings and knowings,
and goings and knowings.

When one can only afford less,
you get by with what little in yourself you have left.

The thought of that overwhelms me, like a damaged boat
consumed whole by a restless hurricane.

And now
I’m just… dying,
dying
to go
home.

Wherever that is.

as i shall weep for mine

Art by Edmund Blair Leighton

defeat in springs.
wayfarers moseying in delight.

only i to have felt loneliness with an old friend.

surveying the many acquaintances in daylight,
i have noticed all success is they;
grounded with so much rapture.

then there is i,
stowed to nowhere.

for chased triumphs is of bittersweet;
none have i had the privilege to hold.

was i to be left unequaled
in the bass of everyone else’s victory?

as i live through the withdrawals of great sanguinity,
i have to unlearn and erase a part of myself
in which was the sole cause of my obsolete.

in these passing moments,
i had shed ample tears of all that was lost in me.

but, even when mourning the severity of these losses,
all the tethered daydreams still tethered.

the green ray still weeps to be.

Solivagant

Art/Photography by Brooke Shaden

I want to seek the world in a bird’s eye view;
To feel the sky against my olive-coloured skin.

Centuries I yearn to pass-through.
Alight my way to the cosmos of when.

The semblance of the sky’s touch.
Clouds surging it’s way like water
All over my figure.
As I stay afloat, as I stay afloat.

Above all of you,
Above the flickered lights.
But you cannot witness, you do not see.

And when all’s well and done,
I glide my way to the interstellar.

Let me wander in galaxy’s unknown;
The kind of eternal life I seek for the better.

The rare contentment of life led alone
Is to witness all the world, the galaxies, and spaces in between.
To afloat afar in distant skies, stars, quasars,
And explore the violet hue yonder.

Everywhere and nowhere.
Exist to not exist.
This is life.
This is the eternal glow.
This is what alone should feel like.

She Who Decides to End

Art/Photography by Unknown

I am She:
The inky-blooded pouring femme.

To my own desolation,
I have embraced thee.

I have shattered every notion
And erased me from all songs of plea.

The pandemonium has swallowed me done
So then Death becomes me.

Such poetically have the planets
Gleamed their light upon me.

The planets and thy madness
Rebirthed me into a frenzied glow.

And their anger fuels inside,
From the days and nights of delaying death.

The dusky tone of a violin
Strumming its way to my death bed.

And it sings:
I am She;
The birth of my death
Will wreak havoc from the stars, moon, and sun.

And all will disintegrate,
And all will fall.

As I am the destroyer of all there is and all that there will be.

This is home to me.

The Giants Now Roam the Earth

Art by もの久保:続き物画集発売中

Plot summary: The dinosaurs were known to be the dominant species at their time, then came the homo sapiens, and then came a new form of species evolved from the very creatures the human race has long resided with on Earth. People once marveled at the idea of a life outside of Earth, not realizing what mother nature had in store for them here.

Characters:
Motoko: A fifteen-year-old Japanese-American girl who struggles to settle in a financially-strained household. Her entire life soon shifts into something completely alien when the animals are no longer what they were or what we thought they to be.

Koneko: A feline whom Motoko had adopted from an animal shelter. Koneko is now given a distinctive development where she serves as Motoko’s only protector in a world that threatens to extinguish the dominance of the human race.

Genre: Science-fiction, Drama

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Note: the art does not in any way tie into the script that I have written but serves as an idea to what it represents. Additionally, the art did not originate from the script. Please click the art or the link of the artist to transmit you to the source material.